He went numbly out to the spring with
the cheese and the cider, not daring to think. When he came back into
the house she was in the process of removing her gown. Best peel the
wet things off,' she said, and got calmly into bed in her shift.
He removed the damp trousers and tunic
and spread them on one side of the round hearth. Naked, he hastened
to the bed and lay down next to her between the pelts, shivering.
'Cold'
She turned to him.'You've been colder.
When I took your place in Barber's bed.'
'And I was sent to sleep on the floor,
on a bitter night. Yes, that was cold.'
She turned to him. “Poor motherless
child,” I kept thinking. I so wished to let you into the bed.'
'You reached down and touched my head.'
She touched his head now, smoothing his
hair and pressing his face into her softness.'I have held my own sons
in this bed.'She closed her eyes. Presently she eased the loose top
of her shift and gave him a pendulous breast.
The living flesh in his mouth made him
seem to remember a long forgotten infant warmth. He felt a prickling
behind his eyelids.
Her hand took his on exploration. 'This
is what you must do,'She kept her eyes closed.
A stick snapped in the hearth but went
unheard. The damp fire was smoking badly.
Lightly and with patience. In circles
as you¡re doing,'she said dreamily.
He threw back the cover and her shift,
despite the cold.
He saw with surprise that she had thick
legs. His eyes studied what his fingers had learned; her femaleness
was like his dream, but now the firelight allowed him the details.
'Faster,'She would have said more but
he found her lips. It was not a mother's mouth, and he noted she did
something interesting with her hungry tongue.
A series of whispers guided him over
her and between heavy thighs. There was no need for further
instruction; instinctively he buckled and thrust.
God was a qualified carpenter, he
realized, for she was a warm and slippery moving mortice and he was a
fitted tenon.
Her eyes snapped open and looked
straight at him. Her lips curled back from her teeth, in a strange
grin and she uttered a harsh rattling from the back of her throat
that would have made him think she lay dying if he hadn't heard such
sounds before.
For years he had watched and heard
other people making love – his father and his mother in their small
and crowed house, and Barber with a long parade of doxies. He had
become convinced that there had to be magic with a cunt for men to
want it so. In the dark mystery of her bed, sneezing like a horse
from the imperfect fire, he felt all anguish and heaviness pumping
from him. Transported by the most frightening kind of joy, he
discovered the vast difference between observation and participation.
From the book “The physician” by
Noah Gordon.
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